As if aunt flo wasn't already bad enough
Before when i got aunt flo it was annoying cramps, bloating, and mood swings. The moment aunt flo arrives i feel like locking myself up for the day and crying. Obviously this isn't reality. I must go to work put on a happy face and take the day on like a champ! Aunt flo is there for a few days to serves me as a constant reminder of the baby that isn't there. My inability to conceive.
Obviously the mood is damper and grouchy. I really try to live my life happy. I don't know when I'm going to die, how much longer God has planned for me to be on the earth. I feel like these days are gloom and I am not myself, and don't like the sadness that becomes me.
I try and remind myself God has a plan for me and that His plan is better than my own. Sometimes when i want something so bad i don't allow myself to see the bigger picture God has created for me. It might not be my perfect reality but it's His perfect reality.
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