And on the Sixth Day....Was Baby Made?

The infamous sixth day before your missed period. I've waited for this day for a weekish. In reality not just a weekish more like months upon months upon months. I try to tell myself I probably am not pregnant, don't get your hopes up. But of course my hopes are up. This is all I hope and dream for! I tell myself the whole week I'm waiting not to think about it not to get my hopes up, especially not to dream about those cute little baby clothes!

This day always bring a big question to mind, test today or wait until I've actually missed a period. Like so many months before will it be negative again? When it's negative will I just think ahhh it's not right it's to early! These test must not be made well! I'll test again after I miss my period. Even if it's only late by 30 seconds I get exited and pull out another $5-7 test.

This day has come for me this month. I feel as if the fantasy of false reality has escaped me and I'm stuck with the reality its negative once again. There is still that hope in the back of my mind again that its wrong.

After I get a negative test I find myself getting soo angry and grumpy. Like there was a huge anvil that has crashed on me. The unbearable weight and sinking feeling. There is still that small small thought in the back of my mind that you'll magically miss your period and be pregnant!